I’m the same with completely losing my senses which has led me to this page - I was out at a bar with my partner and got really drunk, like blackout drunk, and a girl started flirting with me. In front of my partner I apparently flirted back, stroking her shoulder or something? I have absolutely no recollection of this at all, as I would never want to hurt my partner and I don’t even remember anything about the girl or the conversation. It’s made me realise I really need to stop drinking, which is the easy part for me - it’s the forgiving myself and trying to stop feeling like I want to curl up in a ball forever at the drunken memories.