im D, ive been diagnosed with hefty things, including walking corpse syndrome. this, above all things, have made life very intense for me. ive had unimaginable trauma, and I have a past with intense self-harm. with over 11 failed attempts under my belt, 1 which was almost successful, ive had many issues with sleep and dreams
recently, ive always been having dreams that are extremely depressing. so vivid, they are almost unexplainable. they have included death, self-injury, decay, abysmal sorrow, and so on.
dreams that don’t make sense, yet leave such an impact on me, have been a nightly thing for me. recently dealt with gruesome dreams, whether its animals I watch, other people, people I know, or just myself..its all death.
even losing my long time partner in the midst of all this, has been a horrible dream for me.
im unsure where my life will take me. i can’t comprehend things well anymore, as my mental state has been ruining my care to even remember at all, but I hope things go well for me, and for you all too.